I Confess

I have a confession to make. I’m an impatient person. It is so bad at times I actually drive myself mad.

If people say five minutes at 5.01, I’m frustrated.

If someone says I’ll get right on it. I’m expecting them to mean now.

As a mother I drive my kids mad. I shout upstairs “come down here” 10 seconds after I’m shouting again “where are you”. I’m ashamed to say I actually even get annoyed when they are on the loo. I mean how long does it take to pee?

I scream at the computer for loading the page to slow.

Record all programmes as adverts drive me mad.

Slow drivers are the bane of my life.

I don’t like being this way. I have this illusion of being a free-spirited woman with no concept of time. Just going with the flow but I fail terribly.

I am a lot better than I used to be. When I first had my children they never had to do anything. Not because I spoiled them, no I was just too impatient to wait for them.

Having Livvy changed me a lot, nothing I did would hurry her up. Seizures would happen just as we were about to leave. Plans would have to be changed. I did learn how to just take one day at a time.

Why am I telling you all this. Well simply I find myself going back to the old ways. The impatient, frustrated woman is taking over and I seriously like don’t like it.

Summer is around the corner and I want to relax and enjoy the warm days. So here on my blog I am making myself accountable. The next time I get frustrated or impatient I will remind myself of the person I want to be.

Do you have to hold yourself accountable for any reason?
Share with me in the comments and we can work on it together.

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About sarawith4

I'm a stay at home mom who loves her faith and and family. I am a new christian and still learning about the glory and grace of our Lord. I'm also a grieving mom who has to try each day to smile. Knowing my child is with the Lord brings me comfort but doesn't take away the pain of missing them.
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One Response to I Confess

  1. urbanvox says:

    Hehe… I need to hold my comments over that a bit as they would hold a bit of duality if you know what I mean… šŸ™‚
    Oh… I have things to hold myself accountable over… loads of them… and I’m working on it… All you need to do is take a look at my latest posts…
    At this precise moment, I need to work on Boundaries and Limits.
    I don’t know mine, and as so it becomes VERY hard to recognise other people’s.
    I have patience to spare tho… so you can borrow some of mine if you want… šŸ™‚

    xxx

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