I have a problem, I struggle to show what I believe is
weakness. I feel I have to put on this brave face and be strong all the time.
It’s not possible and over the last few days and thanks to
an incredible friend I have realised that it’s ok to be down at times. To be
sad and to say you are.
It doesn’t mean you are weak; in fact it takes courage to be
open and to speak the truth.
It’s been a journey for me; I am the person who always tells
you I’m fine even when I’m not. I worry about putting on others.
Here on this blog I am more honest than anywhere yet even
when someone reads my posts and comes to me my answer is “I’m fine”.
Yet I’m not fine, I am like the rest of the human race. I
have good days and bad. Accepting that this is ok is a step forward for me.
Maybe I can stop beating myself up for what I perceive as weakness and embrace
the freedom in the honesty.
Yes, I am human, I am normal and some days I feel low. You
know what that’s ok.