Discovering our purpose.

 Amazing how we change as we grow. Seasons of our life. As a young child I had many dreams. Deep convictions of the person I wished to be. Fast forward a few years, I’m the wild teenager who has no desires. Life was something God used to punish us.

I’ve dreamed of being many things, a dancer, a soldier, and a business woman. Nothing close to the dream, reality is far from the fantasy.

My identity is something I struggle with on a daily basis. What people see of me is not always the real person inside.

Faith adds a new dimension to your thinking. Just like the moment you become a mother, you become second in your life.  This isn’t a bad thing it’s the realisation of love. Loving someone more than you could ever love yourself. The feelings when I first held my daughter’s words could never describe.

I often wonder of the baby blues you know those few days after giving birth, you find yourself crying for no apparent reason. I find that the emotional impact of loving becomes overwhelming. How such a tiny infant could consume every inch of your heart and soul with love.

I digress but I hope with a point. Finding my faith felt a lot like becoming a parent, the impact of knowing something beyond wonder, bigger than your wildest dreams. The reality that you are a small part, in a much bigger picture. Small but not insignificance! You find yourself asking the question’s not what I want, but what I can do to bring glory to God. The strangest thing is that the two are not different. In what God has called me to do I have found so much joy. Not surprising, God knows me better than I know myself.

I would have never imagined how much I enjoy being a mom. How I loved caring for my daughter with severe needs. As a teenager I would have bolted at the mere mention of any job that involved caring. Yet here I am years later a mother by birth and by heart.

Yes God knew my heart. I discovered God’s purpose for myself and in doing so found where my heart belonged.

 

Today’s post is part of Bonnie’s Jam at Faith Barista  popover to her site for a warm welcome and amazing writing that can not help but move you.

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About sarawith4

I'm a stay at home mom who loves her faith and and family. I am a new christian and still learning about the glory and grace of our Lord. I'm also a grieving mom who has to try each day to smile. Knowing my child is with the Lord brings me comfort but doesn't take away the pain of missing them.
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4 Responses to Discovering our purpose.

  1. ahh a lovely post. I only wish I knew as yet what my purpose is. At the moment it is my season to be my childrens carer and teacher but I do not have enough confidece in my abilities to think that is the purpose the Lord has for me or is that just me being disobient! Either could be.

    Mich x

  2. Becoming a parent has definitely given God new access to my heart. To me, learning to allow God to lead me has deepened my faith because many times with parenting, I am totally dependent on Him! Parenting is really life — it is bigger than us — thanks for sharing such beautifully expressed thoughts on faith and motherhood for the jam, Sara!

    • sarawith4 says:

      Being a parent is the only emotion I can use to express the overwhelming love I feel for God. But his purpose for me as a mother is why I became a foster carer for children with severe needs.

      I’m loving your faith jam. Thank you for allowing me to open my heart.

      Sara xx

  3. Sheryl says:

    What a powerful analogy! Thank you.

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