Amazing how we change as we grow. Seasons of our life. As a young child I had many dreams. Deep convictions of the person I wished to be. Fast forward a few years, I’m the wild teenager who has no desires. Life was something God used to punish us.
I’ve dreamed of being many things, a dancer, a soldier, and a business woman. Nothing close to the dream, reality is far from the fantasy.
My identity is something I struggle with on a daily basis. What people see of me is not always the real person inside.
Faith adds a new dimension to your thinking. Just like the moment you become a mother, you become second in your life. This isn’t a bad thing it’s the realisation of love. Loving someone more than you could ever love yourself. The feelings when I first held my daughter’s words could never describe.
I often wonder of the baby blues you know those few days after giving birth, you find yourself crying for no apparent reason. I find that the emotional impact of loving becomes overwhelming. How such a tiny infant could consume every inch of your heart and soul with love.
I digress but I hope with a point. Finding my faith felt a lot like becoming a parent, the impact of knowing something beyond wonder, bigger than your wildest dreams. The reality that you are a small part, in a much bigger picture. Small but not insignificance! You find yourself asking the question’s not what I want, but what I can do to bring glory to God. The strangest thing is that the two are not different. In what God has called me to do I have found so much joy. Not surprising, God knows me better than I know myself.
I would have never imagined how much I enjoy being a mom. How I loved caring for my daughter with severe needs. As a teenager I would have bolted at the mere mention of any job that involved caring. Yet here I am years later a mother by birth and by heart.
Yes God knew my heart. I discovered God’s purpose for myself and in doing so found where my heart belonged.
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