Do you ever have those days when you can say yes? I know who I am.
Then we have days when you look in the mirror and ask who are you?
To be honest I use the term days when in reality in my case it should be moments. As that’s how I feel, I go from sure to complete confusion in seconds
Growing up isn’t easy. The idea of growing up is normally full of visions of Children, teenagers etc but we are all growing up. Each day we live adds to our life. I am certainly not the person I was at ten at twenty not even four years ago at thirty. I change daily. I grow I hope with wisdom.
Take today for example, I woke with a smile, girls off to school. I lay in bed and just spent time in the silence with God. Many people were on my mind and numerous prayers sent. I felt good and secure in who I am.
Five minutes later in response to an email all sense of calm was lost. I was grieving, hurting, scared, lost in the abyss of sorrow. Confusion was holding my mind to ransom.
How do we go from being so high to so low in such a short space of time?
Its times like this I take strength from knowing who he is. Who is the Lord, he is known by many names but for me, my Saviour.
When I feel lost and scared I reach for the word, I consume scripture, Christian music, all to fill me with the glory of our God.
I don’t remember how I faced these moments without my faith. I’m just grateful I was saved. I learned the truth.
Now I’m back in a semi secure state. This where I spend a lot of my life!
I am working on getting to know myself more, learning what I like, who I want to be. It’s a learning curve; experiences change you all the time.
What never changes though is the all forgiving God he is a constant, my constant. My strength, my truth. He knows who he is.
“God said to Moses “I AM WHO I AM” “ Exodus 3.14
This world is evolving and I pray that we all evolve towards the all loving, all giving God