On Sunday I had the absolute pleasure to hear Rachel Hickson speak at my church. To say she spoke for God would be a total understatement.
For me hearing her words was like an explosion in my mind. The last few weeks I have struggled. Lost and bound by fear. I’m being totally honest when I confess I’m scared. To put myself out there again in case I get hurt, my family gets hurt. As a family we have suffered enough grief, enough heartache.
Rachel spoke about Courage, how I needed to hear this. Rachel asked us to look at our perspectives, the way we view situations to look at the wider picture of life.
Last night as I lay in bed I began thinking of Rachel’s words I was reminded of Luke 24, 15.17
“While they were talking and discussing, Jesus himself approached and began travelling with them. But their eyes were prevented from recognising him”.
I believe at times God does prevent us from seeing what is around the corner or behind the closed-door.
It is times like this when we need to have trust, to stand strong in faith. So many times, pain and fear hide the good from us. We become blind to the truth and just want to believe the negative lies.
I have learned, lived this lesson the last few months. So many people telling me what good we have done when all I could see was the loss.
God may have been preventing me from seeing what was coming but I should have known, for he has never forsaken me.
The enemy loves it when we listen to the negative thoughts he places in our mind. He loved us to forget that we are never alone. I confess there have been times when I have felt so alone.
Never have I doubted God, just myself. I believed I had let God down.
When will I learn???
Yes the future can and probably will be a very scary place full of heartache and pain. If the past taught me anything it is this. If I could get a pair of scales and weigh all the pain on one side and all the joy on another. The joy would certainly outweigh the pain.
Again, a different perspective!
Yes moving forward on my chosen path may be risky and painful but there is no doubt about the joy it will bring. My cup will overflow with love and laughter.
A new perspective takes me forward (thank you Rachel), along with the courage my faith gives me.
Hebrew 12 1:3
“Let us, run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith.”